She stared at me with vacant eyes. I ignored her and continued to work. Letting the camera guide me, I shot my way into the scene. The sycamore leaves above us rattled in the wind. It was cold and I didn't want to be here. Another victim of the drug war, she lay curled on the pavement with a backpack by her side.
In our business, we must distance ourselves from the dead; it's the only way to survive. And as cruel as it sounds, while the camera snapped, she was a piece of furniture, another dead prostitute. I ignored her vacant eyes as she watched me.
Her dirty fingers still clutched the strap of a stained and dusty backpack. I gently tugged it free. The zipper snagged as I pulled it open. Even as I went through the contents, my mind was elsewhere. I'd done all this before. With just a touch, I could identify each item even before I pulled it out. People who live on the streets carry the same things -- a toothbrush, a disposable razor, a dirty hairbrush, a tiny bar of soap wrapped in toilet paper. . .
None of this interested me. And then I felt it . . .
Inside a plastic shopping bag, inside a plastic bread bag, covered with a blue bandana, was something that made me pause. It had a bit of heft to it. Carefully, I peeled away the wrappings to reveal this Thing that was so precious to her, this Thing that she went to such trouble to protect -- and it humbled me.
As the cloth fell to the pavement, she became a person. No longer a piece of furniture, she was a young woman, a victim of society, a victim of circumstance. I stood over her and for a moment, I stared into her empty eyes. Who was she? What were her hopes? Her dreams?
The wind whistled through the sycamore leaves as I carefully placed a battered copy of Webster's Dictionary into the evidence bag.